cried in sch today. 3rd time in jj. first is cos of orientation, which is understandable. second is cos we girls shared our stuffs. then everyone cried la. then today..shld be becos of my recent feelings bah. then helen keep asking why i so moody. then i lost control of my tears. yes. im super stress with everything. wat if i cant get into UNi? wat am i going to do then? im the only child and my parents do need me to take care of them next time and i need alot alot of money. so i must get into uni. local uni. cos no money to go overseas. wat if i fail my piano exam? which is coming very soon. my studies is in chaos. another thing that made me quite bu shuang is that xiuling seems to have some secrets with von n helen. and they make it obvious that there is sth but they are not going to share. i understand that ppl needs privacy. BUt do it more secretively can anot? dont so obvious la.