monday the 17th of april. its was after a long weekend.as normal i wake up unwillingly and took the normal route to sch. but on the bus i feel tt i really din wanna go sch. then i was impossible for me to go home too. took quite awhile to decide. in the end i smsed luxin. [dont feel like going gp leh..wan skip together?] actually its also becos my eyes hurts n i seriously need tissue. haha lame. then he called me after like 10 mins. just nice when the 198 was at the stop and all other jjcians got on it while i sat down there. then took 51 to interchange to meet him. upon seeing the middle platform got train waiting. we decided to board. then we decided to go to his house. at first im only thinking of skipping gp go his house cope some tissue n slack at the park downstairs. then go to sch for lectures. but in the end we decided to skip whole day. took long time to decide too. cos its bad. i laid on his bed rested for a while. when im doing tt..it made me thought of the unwanted memories. when last time i pon sch to go my ex's house. then i will always feel very guilty. actually ytd too. cos its like im lying on a guy's bed hugging his boister. then like very weird la. duno la. i was super afraid to let other ppl know this thing. but in the end shiyi still got to know it. bcos i cant resist the urge to sms him and and him to join me n luxin. i seriously think tt im a girl tt is quite stupid la. and bad in a way too. like how can anyhow go guy's house slp rite. tho i din slp. and while im doing tt to a guy n he is nice enough to allow me doing tt, im thinking of another guy whom i think i like more. and in fact..the whole world knows tt i like isaac. and i really do wants to have him more. when im still so close to another 2 guys. wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im like apiece of shit. but i also nv do anything wrong with them wat. like pon sch is wrong la but not super serious wat. ok after tt we went to lot 1 wanting to watch a movie. but i smsed shiyi. so we wait for him to come first lor. then we cant do anything except watching movie cos im wearing sch skirt. diaoz.. then walked around still cant find anything to buy for me to wear. so i went home. was abit unhappy when i left. like they r so mean la. when i went back to lot 1 found them in xbox. tt place was cool tho i din play anything. haha. then we went to play pool. then went to eat. then luxin suddenly left la like say got urgent things on. we were shocked once again. just like the time at genting. we suddenly bad mood. but i think i know why. he is jealous. but he also nv say how will i know rite. just act blur lor. when im alone with him he is always very happy la.