24 april 06
omg. i sinked in the world of jealousy. the other day was the same. i think is becos she sat beside him n the whole maths extra lesson they were talking away while i sat btw grace n nabil. super jealous. was in a bad mood. after went for dance n im happy. realised tt dance can actually make me happy. ppl there r fun loving. sometimes in class there r just no one i can talk too. firstly, helen talks too much n she can find all the topics in the world to talk abt. secondly, i really duno wat to say. thirdly, there seems to be some secrets gg on btw everyone but not me. i duno. today i was jealous becos he asked her to buy drink for him. its not the first time tho. n i duno y. i mean last time i tot its bcos he afraid we r too close then many misunderstandings. but y now still me n him. she got so much contacts with him as well. no one says anyth abt them. im jealous. becos i like him? i duno. i know tt i really like iz. for him, i just wish tt he dont ever take me for granted and treat me well. i treat him as a good fren. indeed the best guy fren. wat eh take me as? ke you ke wu de peng you? i hate it when i have the feeling of jealousy but i cant help it. sometimes in class no one realise tt im so quiet. im down.